I've been a bit anxious these days. Anxious, not being confident in my English. Well, my speaking is fine. I can manage to say what I want to say. But as for the listening comprehension, I still find it very difficult. Especially at dinner time, I want to join the other GAP students' or teachers' conversation, but they speak so fast and I don't even catch what the topic is. When I talked to this problem to one of the GAP students from Germany, for whom English is the second language, she told me that she found it harder to speak rather than listening. According to her, she understands almost everything in the native speakers' conversation, but it's harder for her to say what she wants to say. I think most people are like this, but I'm the opposite, I don't know why. Her speaking skill is probably at the same level as mine, but a lot more people talk to her. I envy her sometimes, because she can join the conversation. Maybe I'm thought by others that I'm a quiet person, because I'm very quiet during the meal, inspite of my speaking ability. It's a pity that people won't notice that I want to join the conversation but I can't because of the lack of listening ability. I feel bad if I disterbed their conversation, but I know it's not good for me to improve my English. I should be more confident and should try more to join the conversation, not being hesitated to disturb the conversation. Ganbaru zo!!